What does not kill us...

 I am a ridiculously proud member of the Buffalo front runners and even though my involvement has only been as long as I've lived here, I really feel like part of the "team". I couldn't have asked for more wonderful people. Aside from their sparkling personalities, what draws me in is the challenge. Here I am, running over a 7 mile course today with way more experienced people. Not to mention, most if not all the runners are men, leaving my short womanly legs scrambling to keep up. Their "I'm just taking it easy" pace is COMPLETELY different then mine. So it pushes me and secretly, I like it (but not in the moment, in the moment I actually find myself somewhat doubting my sanity.) After last nights long run, (and nursing sore muscles) todays run literally kicked my ass. Not only am I pumping out the miles, but the pace... oh man the pace could undoubtably kill a small animal (and I say that because the small animals legs would be even shorter than my own.) We planned on four laps, but as we were ending the third I wanted to give up. I talked myself through it - this is hard now, but in the long run, it will make you a much better, stronger runner. Just hang in there. And I did, stomach pain, muscle pain, nausea, fatigue and all. It feels like an accomplishment now that those side effects have since worn off. (I attribute the stomach pain to not enough water.. I know better than that.) In the last two days, I've done almost 15 miles. I'd be lying if I didn't say how happy (and proud) I am of that. Keep it up self, keep it up. My confidence of my ability for my half is growing.

Any who, Im dying to try these jelly beans for my longer runs, even though admittedly I don't yet know very much about them. My biggest problem seems to be hunting them down and I don't feel entirely comfortable getting them off of the internet. Oh what to do what to do. I know it's early to even be considering this, but would it be completely absurd to ask for these in my Easter basket? I mean they are jelly beans after all ;) The fuel belt I want for my half reeeaaal bad. Every 5k race I have run, I pass the water station, catch the cup, go to take a nice (well deserved and much needed) sip only to have it all go up my nose. Lets face it, I can't walk and drink water, let alone run. I feel like this would save a lot of stress and eliminate the possibility of dehydration. The only problem? Same thing as the darn jelly beans! I can't find it! Even on line, finding this color, in an extra small (or anything in an extra small for that matter) is darn near impossible. Im starting to run out of time here; and my patience (and hope) is running after. I think I might do my muscles a favor and treat them to a nice bubble bath. I am completely exhausted.