When there is something unpleasant going on in my life I literally run away from it. I lace up my sneakers as a warning to leave me alone and then, just like that I am gone. I had, what started out to be, a really great therapeutic run just the night before last. I ran on a different side of town - it was so beautiful and distracting. Then I made the realization that all the runners hang out there and Im not going to lie, I felt a little intimidated. They were all hauling ass and me? I was just going for a late night "stroll". I wasn't training, collecting miles, paying attention to pace or time or trying to be the fastest - I was trying to get away. Im not going to lie again, its hard to keep that mentality when everyone is town in running past you. I almost felt like I was in the way.
It ended up to be a painful run; four and a half miles in and my stomach hurt like hell (I know it was my fault, from the days events proper nutrition and hydration were no where to be found. Shame on me because I know better.) Somewhere in the beginning of that run my shin started to burn, then hurt, then become excruciatingly painful, so trying to do the responsible thing, I have been off of it ever since. I've been icing, soaking, elevating.. yada yada yada. Research says it could be shinsplints, They also said it could be a stress fracture. Either is possible considering how high I have recently jacked up my miles. Not to run yesterday, when I felt like I really needed it sucked. Really bad. Running for me is it, my sanity, my salvation, my greatest personal achievement, my whatever I need it to be and to not have it? It's hard. I need to find something to put in its place for these kind of instances.
Im beyond scared because I have a 5k on friday - one that I was going to try and push a new PR out of. Okay fine, there is always next year for that, but what about my half? That's only a couple week away. If I stay off it and rest, it could be completely healed by then... but then what if I lose so much endurance that 13 miles healed or not is completely out of the question? Everyone tells me to stop trying to predict the future.. And believe me, I get that. But they have to "get" that this half is everything I have been working for so far. I think I have the right, and then some to be a little scared. Im trying to be positive.
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On a slightly different, much more edible note, my wonderful woman has been finding ways to satisfy my sweet tooth. Hellooooo desert heaven. Were talking all of my favorites; graham crackers, light cool whip, banana and of course, peanut butter. I could eat this every single day. All day. We have slight variations to the "recipe", but this one is my favorite. I simply can't resist her decorative peanut butter skills.
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